Isn't it funny how you think that you know someone but you really don't. You actually have no idea who they really are, what they're thinking? It's crazy. Like i have always been told by my mum that you can't trust anyone and that nobody's who they actually seem. But i always thought that she was just saying that because she's been hurt by alot of people in the past and she's one to always hold a grudge. If anyone crosses her the wrong way she won't forgive. Thankfully i didn't inherit that from her. I try not to hold a grudge but it's not always easy for me to forget.

I just wish that everyone could be themselves, and speak their mind. To not be afraid if something's not making them happy. People shouldn't have to feel as though they have to go behind other people's backs to vent their feelings. It's not really fair as that persons not there to defend themselves and it's kind of a shame that they have to do that anyway. It's somewhat... cowardly? Do you agree?

Anyways sorry for the random blog lol. Hope you're all okay. And also like to say sorry i haven't been around much lately. x

Hi everyone.

I'm not having a great week if i'm honest. I just feel really down all the time, like the whole of the 3 weeks i was away from my boyfriend i was missing him like mad and couldn't wait to come back and be with him. Now i am here and i just feel really empty all of the time. I don't know why. Maybe it's because it's just sinking in that i'm moving to the other side of the country to be with him, i don't know!? He keeps telling me he thinks there's something not right and i never know what to say back to him. I love him so much but something feels wrong and i don't know what it is. It could also be the fact that we're together all the time when we're not apart from eachother because i stay with him. It's killing me not knowing whats wrong.

Anyways sorry for the rant, hope you're all okay x

If anyone has any advice i'd be really thankful.

Ah i'm never drinking again! as cliche as it sounds, it's true, lol. I had a really good night last night. We went to a birthday party. I got very drunk! I even got up on the dancefloor and on stage to do abit of dancing. I haven't had that much fun in aaages. It was nice to enjoy myself after the crap that's been going on lately.

My boyfriend comes back tomorrow yay! I'm so excited to see him. It's been soo hard not being able to see him for 3 weeks, but it's going to be worth it when i see him again. It's just made our relationship so much stronger, being apart for so long.

Well just thought i'd do a quick post! Hope you're all enjoying your day/night.

Ciao x x

They painted up your secrets

With the lies they told you

 And the least they ever gave you

Was the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go

When the world gets in your way

Whats the point in all this screaming

No ones listening anyway

 Your voice is small and fading

And you hide in here unknown

And your mother loves your father

 cause shes got nowhere to go

And she wonders where these dreams go

cause the world got in her way

 Whats the point ever trying

 Nothings changing anyway

 They press their lips against you

And you love the lies they say

 And I tried so hard to reach you

 But youre falling anyway

And you know I see right through you

When the world gets in your way

Whats the point in all the screaming

Youre not listening anyway

Okay so i read a blog by 'nyourfacegrace' about people who "whine and complain" and it really got me thinking. Okay so she has already contradicted herself by saying that she can't stand people who complain and whine. And then goes and does the same thing by writing about how much these people annoy her. But anyways that's not the point. The point is that she says these people are too lazy to do anything about their problems. Not necessarily true! I agree that many people who have a problem will just go on and on about it so that people say something to make them feel better, or these people may not even have a problem, they just pretend to so they can hear, for example; how 'hot' and 'beautiful' and 'smart they are. But to me, the whole point of this mindsay thing is to write about whatever is on your mind, or whatever is bothering you. Some people have nobody to talk to about their problems, or find it difficult confiding in people so they come on here and get everything off their chest. I don't see what's so wrong with that. Everybody complains about something lol! i don't care what anyone says.

And this 'nyourfacegrace' also made a comment about if you get dumped by your boyfriend to just get over it. If only it was that easy! When you make someone your everything and then they're just gone, it's hard to get over it. And they need people to help them get through it, not people who tell them to 'shut up and stop whining' It's people like that who have made me who i am today which is simply a better person.